Wow. what can i say?
im back. and what a year it has been. where do i start? where i left off really. last time i was here i was a bit shaken up. i had jst had a big accedent involving my little brother. a year on and he is much better. he has had his last opperation to remove all his metal work from his legs and is underway with his new bicycle he got for his 12th birthday yesterday well done him. what a soldier. i have only but envy for him after all this. and even now i feel some welling up just thinking about the whole ordeal. never mind. lets move on.

In jan 08 i had my first taste of AS level exams. scary to say the least, and more in June. Long story short i came out with 5 c's. which is a start. respectable. maths, physics, food tech, business and general studies (if it can be classed as a real subject(it was compulsory)).

This news was sent to me while i was the other side of the world believe it or not. i ended up spending july and august is New Zealand and Australia! i was so excited. The 19 hour plane journy brought that hype down a bit but so very worth it. In NZ we stayed in Auckland for near enough 2 weeks. I met Marler family i have never met before. We (my family) are the only Marlers this side of the equator, and iv never met others, so this was amaizing. After lots of this we went to rotarua for a few nights. it was great fun. Amaizing geological and geothermal site. really interesing.
Then off to Queenstown on the south island for 5 days. I tried my hand at snowboarding. it was awsome! unfortuanatelly i couldnt sit down for 2 days afterwards! hahaha. oh well. totally worth it though.
Then we went to Melbourne for 5 nights. Here i met my Auntie Amanda. My dads sister. I have NEVER met her in my life. seriously. and my dad hadnt seen her in 20 years!! so it was incredible. very emotional.
Then for more of a holiday we went to perth for 2 weeks. Winter? PFFFT!! it was 25 degrees! thats not winter. thats not even summer here for f*cks sake! oh well. cant say i complained.

Then it was home to glourious england, and to be welcomed with nothing better than A-levels. And that nearly gets you up to date. But not quite.

Between now and then i turned 18 and it was briliant. i thought id become a perminent piss head! but it was too expensive.
ho hum. And then only 2 days ago my dad walked ito my room to tell me my Auntie Brenda had died at 3 AM that morning. It was a very sad day. But it was right in the end becuase for the last two weeks she had been sufering after 2 storkes. She was ready. its what she wanted. So sleep wel Auntie B, We'll miss you...

And then yesterday i had an archery competition that i loved! i won my first senior medal! so pleased. and i got the highest score of the day for mens recurve! 277 out of 300! so chuffed with myself.

anyways, its glad to be back and i hope ill see everyone about.xxx

Saturday was the worst day of my life so far i fink. it was hidious. I cant believe what happend. It was a total accedent. i truly was! But the truth of that matter is that i nearly killed him...
I was doing suome practice driving on our field when my little bro of 10 came out. now he does a bit of driving himself, and so the car being driven what not only a common occurance, but also one that he wished happend more.
He started being a traffic warden for me. id stop infront of him and he would wave forward some imaginary cars going the other way. then id be let through. this carried on few times round the field. then it happend...
i stoped infont of him, and me being cocky i nudged forward closer to him. and i though he jumped on the bannet.. ya know for a ride. so i accelerated off, still in forst so no faster than 10 or 15 (but done get me wrong, still too fast) and tne suddenly i noticed he wasnt looking v comfortable on the bnnet and also the end of the field was fast approachong.
i broke. he slid off. the breaks locked and long storty short i didnt stop. he ended up under the car.
also the whole time the parents wernt in. they were when i started driving, but they can gone out quickly. there was an ambulace, 2 paramedics, 4 policecars, 2 fire engines and 1 helecopter. after being under the car for about an hour. he was airlefted to hospital and that night he underwebt 6 hours of surgary on his legs because they were such a mess. i broke both hsi legs and his collar bone. 4 inces was the different between the wheel hitting his head or not.
he will be 6 weeks in a wheel chair. i feel awful. just teribble. i cant believe it. in my hed all i have going over and over is the even of him disapearing under the car, the car bumping over him and hearing his screams.
its stuck on repeat and its driving me crazy!! iv cryed more this weekend that most of my life put into one. i cant deal with it. and today im going to see him for the first time in hospital. i havent spoekn to him since. im nt sure how wel im going to be able to deal with it tbh.
i just cant believe what happend. i just hate myself for it.... i really do

i should really keep up with this thing. i mean its just like been years since i was alst on. n i miss this place and all the people. so i really need to keep up with this. it feels soo good to be back. n hopefully im here to stay! and i have soo much to submit. its just getting the time! i mean iv done loads ot the "real moon landing" and i crack myself up reading it. not to blow my own trumpet or anything lol. i should probably start using some paragraphs....

there we go. lol

well im in my new skwl. iv finished my stint at bording school and now im living with my daddy and going to a normal sixth form in evesham. its pretty good! but its so weaird. for the 3rd-4th time iv had to start from scratch with freinds and relationships with every1 really. n even after 3, nearly 4, weeks i still feel really... i dont know. i jst dont feel like i fit here preoprly. i dont know how to describe it. i hope it will be ok here in the end.

well hopefully ill be on much more often.
so i hope every1 is all ok and getting along with life smoothly.
hopefully talk to you all soon.
much love seb xx

hello everyone
i no i havent been on this for AGES but it was banned at school becuase some stupid little girl decided to go on it in lesson and also iv been kinda v busy trying to sort out my life! lol but im back now. anyways. i hope your all good and havent been bad girls and boys. please drop me a not or something.
talk soon love seb xxxxxx

ok, this not make that much sence as im extremely hyper while writing this, so i appologise in advance!!! ok now to why im lyk this.

About 2-3 months ago i met a girl on DA called Josei. The situation i dont wish to look back on coz it wasnt my finest moment in life, but hey, thats life. After we started talking and she asked me what school i went to, and i answered a bording school in North Surry. she said i mite be going to one in north sury too. i told her what school, and she had applied for the same one. i though OMG!!!

And today she came!! Shes actually her! she one of the coolest people iv met, and now we have finally met! its totally mind blowing, and im soooo happy she's here! its unbelieveable! shes really kwl. very trust worthy (we have alot of stuff we know bout each other) and v good looking to! its soo great!

anyway, i could probally go on about her for what, 3 hours? so i think ill stop now, and not bore you. so yeah. bye bye for now